=AshiAshi

I'm going to say this... because it explains how come I don't draw much lately. Don't pity me lol, it won't help me one bit.

My dad hates how I'm behind the computer a lot. Everytime I'm behind it I'm actually just too nervous to do anything else than chatting/typing messages in general .D; (Or having mic convos ;D -pets people who heard her awesome voice when she was sick-) ...My dad's disapproval is just always in my head. Today it got a bit out of hand and we had a fight...

Let's just say I have an illness that I'm not going to describe on DA, but my dad thinks it's bullshit and doesn't accept it. He's so fed up with me "leeching" around as he calls it, that he wants me out of the house again. (While I seriously work my butt off anyways when I can...) I don't really wanna live with my mum anymore and she's not too happy to have me around either... They both don't want me lol. It doesn't even hurt, but it's confusing me.

Lately I'm even doing the chores a lot just to please my dad - this morning I woke up panicking at the thought I had to vaccuum clean the house, then do this, that... etc. I think I'm suffering from the pressure a little xD;; I would go live by myself if it wasn't for the fact that I'm saving money for obvious big things happening forthcoming november... I guess I'll have to move in with my mum again and survive for 3 more months.

So yeah... These things make it a bit hard to relax... And I can't draw when I'm nervous OTL Of course it's gonna get better, but it might take a while.

Cheesy, but has to be said: ilu guys You make all of this a bit easier and funnier xD ...I just hope my dad won't cut off my internet... I really think when I wake up tomorrow it won't work anymore. Hurrr -tense-

_{...Oh yeah l: Please don't go overly worried at me or something... that pisses me off. This has been going on for quite a while you know... A day more or less is like... yeah. It happens. I just want to have fun <3}

Good night C: ...I'm so tired lol.

I... am looking for really sad songs. ...Suggestions would be much appreciated... Any languages are fine. I... ran out of keywords on youtube.

I need to CG something or I'm going crazy. Working on my own drawings doesn't seem that appealing to me lately though. I've been sketching a lot but then half the way during the cging proces I seem to lose motivation. I'll stick to colouring the work of others for a while (of course with their permission only).

My tablet is still broken as well, unfortunately it wasn't the pen that caused it to glitch all the time. I never used the tablet much - not at all except for MSN fun - but recently I had just started to use it more and then it broke. I wanna use it so bad. Nothing I tried works though, it's not the drivers or the plugs, or the pen as I obviously know by now. I ordered a new tablet and I'm sending my old one back to its factory where they can fix it (the warranty is still valid <3) and then... I'll end up with two tablets in the end (and 3 pens lol). I'm probably selling one of them. But I'm not gonna wait for the factory to fix it then send it back, it would take up to 6 weeks and perhaps even more due to the holidays and vacations. I can't wait that long OTL And I don't want to either.

I hope I can feed my gallery again soon.

...

I shoud really go to bed now. I wish I could sleep till november .D

Me too, me too! >:U

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired (Lol that's not something you do, someone else does it to you.)
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class (I can count the times on both hands and don't need all 10 fingers.)
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die (How is that stupid?)
SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantART / sheezyart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
( ) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 8 (LOL it's stupid to have been in Paris and Spain?)

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 11

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have (I stalked him =u=; Ahh I was so naive.)
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel (And then more snow figures XD)
SO FAR: 16

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party (I was forced ): lol)
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 19

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sliding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School (Both XD)
SO far: 24

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake (WE DON'T HAVE THEM?!)
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 25

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 28

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident (it was scarily close tho x_x)
SO FAR: 30

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces (Had.)
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 33

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 36

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World (LOL... How is that stupid?!)
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 39

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers(
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 44

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (WATER, OK?! MY BROTHER DID IT DX)
(x) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 48

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 50

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 51

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins (...-shakes head- really that ain't stupid)
SO FAR: 53

Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes (OHH THE BLOOD .D)
( ) Kicked A Fish (LMAO WTF.)
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 56

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about (I wonder why I feel tired right now 8D)
SO FAR: 59

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 61

Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail (Yup, visited. With school.)
SO FAR: 63

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone (None D8)
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 66

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 69

Level 27
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 71

Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 74

Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 78

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 79

Repost this with the title:
I've Done __ of the 120 stupidest things (with your total in that blank spot.)

To anyone who has ever sent me a PM on the boards or is planning to do so in the near or far future:

[link]

BUT.

I quote, live from iAnti: "Inbox (4)"

Maybe I should click it more often. Though most of the times I can't really be bothered because everyone seems to send their PMs to all admins anyway. That, and I'd rather spend/waste my time differently atm.

Also:

"Deviant =AshiAshi | Subscribed | 652 Deviations, 544 Messages, 3 Notes | View Cart (No items) | Logout"

I... try to? OTL;

My apologies to people who have left comments/sent PMs and stll haven't gotten replies. I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose. I just suck at my own time management xD

you guys.

CX

-hugs new journal footer-

;_; GUESS WHAT?! They still didn't deliver my tablet pen! If I don't receive it within the next 2 hours I have to call them people D: And I don't wanna call lol.

-enjoys journal footer some more-

[Edit]

LOL this was supposed to be a new journal XD I deleted my ranting one unintentionally! Oh well. Ignore the first 37 comments? |D

Snatched from =ookami-kun C:

10 questions. 10 answers for each. Enjoy.

K I filled the previous one out during an emo fit 8D I'm inspired to do it again so... because I can?!

I. Name 10 significant details about your life so far.
Ummm I don't feel much significant things have happened in my life lol.

1. I feel my life is about to change, and I really hope it is. I t needs a turn for the better C:
2. I made new friends, both IRL and online.
3. I got driving lessons from a great driving instructor, I looked forward to them every time. It was fun!
4. I got my driving licence at the first try. And I really don't like driving with my dad beside me LOL. I miss my lessons even though most people I know hated theirs xD
5. I became a member of the gym I'm still going to nowadays, and had/have lots of fun with both the instructors and the other members.
6. For approximately a year, I've had the time of my life on a certain chatbox a few years ago, and I'll never forget it
7. /
8. /
9. /
10. /

II. What are 10 things you can't live without?
Lol I kinda left these the way they were before xD

1. I stick to my previous answer: a computer/laptop. It makes communcation easy DX I want to know what's happening all over the world.
2. Az, Britt, Tag, Ookz & Kuru because they make me laugh and make MSN fun
3. Working-out. No really. It's a must.
4. My brother lol. I love him 8D
5. New Years Eve!!
6. Torn & Belial
7. 18+
8. Sleep
9. Food
10. Pens, Pencils & Paper (I see what you read there.)

III. What are 10 things you want to accomplish in life?
OH GOD. CHANGES PLZ.

1. Get surgery. (Yesplz. STFU C: )
2. Improve at drawing!
3. Emigrate
4. I want a goal in life xD;; I don't have any ambitions atm.
5. Become fluent in Japanese, or at least a lot better than I am now.
6. /
7. /
8. /
9. /
10. /

IV. Name 10 Important traits about yourself
Edit as well xD

1. I'm a good listener.
2. I hate phonecalls! Both making them and receiving them.
3. I have never broken a bone before o_o;
4. I have thoughts and fantasies I really shouldn't have OTL;;
5. I hate reality and need to retreat from it frequently. I wonder if I'll ever grow up? D:
6. I will respect you, no matter how you look, where you come from or what you believe in, until you hurt me C:
7. I have a way with words
8. I need obsessions |: They colour my life.
9. I laugh easily xD;
10. I learn quickly.

V. What are 10 quotes you like?
These are not edited.

1. "THE NAME IS TAI!" "Fine, Kai =u=; Whatever."
2. "-creams-" <awkward silence> "...+s (:"
3. "...I'm so virgin even that thick-headed softball can see it."
4. "If you don't mind- I'm talking to this lovely lady. Not you."
5. "I shall tempist the restation!" (_{I shall resist the temptation.})
6. "When I quit my previous job, I felt like I was freed from jail!"
7. "Gloomy weather isn't it?" "...Duh it's been raining all day." "Then why are we camping?"
8. "It's ok."
9. "IT'S OVER 9000!!!!!"
10. "GHALIEX MA CEMPILTLIX?!"

VI. What are 10 things about you that most people won't know?
Changed some 8D

1. I was born with a hole in my heart (it grew tight later on).
2. I'm a virgin LOL (_{doesn't mean i'm not experienced})
3. I got my first kiss when I was 8 =u=;;
4. I love to sing. And I would love to be a singer but I could never become one. I'm not confident enough.
5. I freeze when people hug me. It just makes me go "...huh?" xD
6. I can't cry when I'm upset. I only cry when others are upset or when I see people cry OTL;;
7. I wish I was Asian |: So I would be skinny and eating Asian food a lot!
8. I could be the perfect sadist and torture people mentally OTL I choose not to be that way.
9. I really don't like my dead tablet pen! I'm glad I'm getting a new one C:
10. I can cook well but I may be too lazy to put effort into it .

VII. What are 10 songs that describe you?
EITHER ASIAN, AWESOME OR CATCHY. So don't go by the lyrics lol.

1. Lee Hyori - Get Ya
2. Koda Kumi - Get Up & Move
3. Jolin Tsai - Dancing Forever
4. Ayumi Hamasaki - Inspire
5. Koda Kumi - Freaky
6. BoA - Sweet Impact
7. Koda Kumi - Run For Your Life
8. Ayumi Hamasaki - Game
9. Pussy Cat Dolls - Buttons (You have no idea what this song can do >:U And ahhhh such good memories )
10. Audio Club - Hot, Bangin', Supa Sexy (DUDE, FEEL THE AWESOME)

VIII. What are 10 things you love about yourself?
Lol I left this one the same.

1. Eyes
2. Hair
3. My way with words
4. Creativity
5. Brains C:
6. Condition
7. My positivity (when not emo-ish v_v;; hurr)
8. My smile
9. My flexibility.
10. My height (I'm kinda short lol.)

IX. What are 10 things you dislike about yourself?
Edited a little.

1. My entire body. Stfu.
2. How my drawings seldomly come out the way I want them to! ...Only closely.
3. The broken part =u=
4. My impatience (only towards myself though)
5. How I can never put myself at ease, to just sit down and draw or to do anything else without worrying.
6. How I can't just appreciate what I have. I really want things to get better >:;
7. How I can always explain everything about myself except for my feelings.
8. My concentration since it went missing.
9. Being indecisive.
10. Feeling unworthy.

X. What are 10 things you would like to change about yourself and the world around you?
EDITED.

1. I want to enjoy life again/more.
2. I want to stop being overly scared to fail.
3. I want people to respect each other more.
4. STOP THE COMPLAINING ABOUT THINGS THAT REALLY DON'T MATTER such as broken nails and messy hair etc ;A; (Unless you mention it in a joking way.)
5. KILL THE FLAMERS >:U
6. CURE STUPIDITY!!
7. INVENT ANTI-SPAM SPRAY!!!
8. I... want to feel awesome ;u;
9. I wish people would express their appreciation about things/people better than their complaints.
10. My body plz? C:

Ahh that felt good.

Who was the person who knew how I can order a new tablet pen? I saved your message but I accidentally deleted it a few days ago ;_; I CAN'T FIND YOUR ACCOUNTNAME ON DA.

I suck like that but I still love you ): lmao.

I suddenly see them spawn in my message list like wildfire o3o;;

Here we go! Leave a comment to my journal and I will:

A) Tell you why I friended/talk to you

B) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.

C) Tell you something I like about you

D) Tell you a memory I have of you

E) Ask something I've always wanted to
know about you

F) Tell you my favorite user pic of yours

G) In return, you must post this in your
journal



I still have to comment on some of your journals as well because I want to see these ones filled out myself xD;;